“You don’t get what you want, you get what you’re being.”
This feels typical: I deeply desire this County of Marin job, so much so that I’d say I feel “desperate” for it. And I know: “Nobody ever gets what they want while they’re desperate for it.”
“What can I do differently this time?”
ALIGN yourself with what you want. Part of the desperation is feeling the distance between who’re you’re being, and who the version of you is that gets this job. There is no desperation within that Daniel, because the money/status/security/responsibility of that position, matches the status/security/responsibility of who he is.
- In bed by 1:30 at the latest
- Up by 9:30 at the latest
- Consistent and EVERY night
- Run through one chapter edited every three days
- Write that short story, prepare for the next. You are launching a second career, here.
- Workout much more (build those deltoids)
- Keep mildly dieting
CP wasn’t meant to be, because it was matched with the Daniel you’re evolving out of. As was BWC. You are meant for more.
This is the path to who you want to be to attract what you want.